Hi! I’m Jenni! I am Illuminate Space.
I am mostly known for smiling, laughing, squeeze hugging you so tight your ribs crack, and giving bird funerals.
But, I’m really shy! I’m also really bubbly so this sometimes confuses people. I might not come up and talk to you, but it’s because I’m so nervous, not because I don’t WANT to. I am deeply introverted, but love to make people feel loved, so those things are often in tension with each other.
I identify as an enneagram 6 and an INFJ wholly and completely. I’ve lived with anxiety for as long as I can remember, but didn’t know what it was and didn’t seek treatment until my late 20s. I share my story so often because I want people to know there is no shame in seeking treatment. Just like we seek medical care when something is going on in our body, our mind is just as critical. I keep myself healthy through regular visits to a counselor, and medicine when needed. I also love my roller bottles and candles because scent helps calm me.
I’m very much “over” my anxiety, but at the same time I make room for it. I’ve learned how it is a part of me, and I can manage it by putting it in the passenger seat instead of the driver’s seat. Rather than push it down (which does more damage) I observe it and let it tell me what it needs to tell me (with supervision of those that love and care for me) without letting it take charge.
Just know, you’re not alone, we are all in this together.
